37 Weeks

Almost there! So close and yet so far. I am really getting anxious now about...well everything: the labor, the birth, but mostly seeing my baby girl for the first time.

I found this little quote on a baby website and I wanted to comment on it:
"It was instant love between me and my daughter. It's so primal and natural. I thought it would take at least a few hours, but my love for my daughter has been fiercer than I ever thought it would be from the second she was placed on my chest. – sophieg74"

My comment is that I don't have to wait to see my daughter in order to feel an intense love for her. I already do. I have loved her from the moment she was conceived. I know that my love will grow for her as I get to know her, but my heart is full for her right this second. I pray for her every day. I pray that she is healthy, will be born without complications, and that she will live a happy life. I pray also for guidance and wisdom from the Lord on how to raise this child.

Lately, I have been having some slight cramps down below. I am not sure, but from what I am reading it may be a result of those false labor contractions. It doesn't really hurt and I hardly notice it most of the time. Other times, I can't tell if I'm just a little gassy instead. Apart from that, I have rally had trouble sleeping lately. Between having to get up to pee in the middle of the night and insomnia from the impeding delivery, it is difficult to get a lot of rest. When I do sleep, my dreams are often disturbing. I am told it is just nerves. My dear husband, Stephen, however, has been wonderful. He is so supportive and has been especially sweet lately it seems. He mentioned that he was concerned that we would not get as much snuggle time for the two of us once our daughter is born. I reassured him that there would be plenty of time for snuggling. We have been married a little over a year now, yet the honeymoon phase has never fully worn off. I would much prefer to still be in honeymoon phase when we are in our old age.

I am so incredibly blessed. Life has not always been a basket of cherries, but I can't say I would trade any of part of it. My husband and I are still very much in puppy love and have been very content in our lives up to this point. A daughter on the way only adds a rich and wonderful icing to an already delicious cake. I am so glad that she will grow up in a happy home where she is loved and adored by parents who love and adore each other as well.