19 Weeks

  Tomorrow makes 19 weeks into this pregnancy and I am thrilled at how easy it has been so far. Of course I am generally tired, mild hormonal headaches plague me from time to time, and I have a shorter fuse. Really, though, that stuff is pretty normal. My blood pressure remains a little on the high side which fortunately has yet to have any negative impact on me or on Ashley thus far.
   One thing that I have really enjoyed lately is feeling my baby's movements. She wiggles a lot and seems to be getting stronger everyday, for her wiggles are becoming more and more pronounced it seems. When I first felt the sensation of movements in my belly a few weeks ago, it made me feel a little nauseated. I guess I just didn't know what they were supposed to feel like...didn't know what to expect. When she is particularly active it seems a little weird and sometimes catches me off guard. It is neat to feel her, but its also a little creepy to feel a little body swimming around inside me.
   I often dream about my baby girl and what it will be like to hold her and play with her. I am so ready to see her face to face for the first time. My biggest anxiety at this point is the idea of labor. Not so fun, I hear. But as I have mentioned before, I would go through just about anything to ensure her safety and well being. Every woman with children who has ever walked this earth had to have given birth at one point or another, whether by surgery or vaginal birth, drugged or au-natural. I figure that because God made me a woman, and he put a baby inside me, that I am meant to do this, I can, and I will. Still, I also know it is supposed to hurt... a lot. I truly hope I can deliver vaginally, but I am going to prepare myself mentally just in case that isn't my option.